|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

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August 2010

yar rite.. juz tok abt killing distractions... then i ended up returning home at 3pm last nite n not helping in the ICP project de surveys.... great... then i got WJ pissed off with me as well... as if i dun have enough pple in class pissed off with me... "screw the irresponsible one"... "irresponsibility will get you nowhere"... *waves hand n pointing to myself*... i noe wat u guys mean...

yesterday sitting in uncle's car... i suddenly quieten down and thought: hey... if i cn open the door of this speeding car and jump out.. i cn jux die! c how easy death is? e thing is.. i cant bring myself to do it.. true... im having a hard life now ( joanne: u created this urself)... but if im really going to die.. i noe somewhere there will b somebody upset over it... and the last thing i wanna do is to upset those tat still loves me...

in e end wat i did was to have a good talk with my best fren in my sch, SY... i told her that if there is nth i cn do to change the situation and the impression of pple in my class have of me... its going to b a miserable 3 years of life for me.. if tat is the case... y not just leave? i can always waste one year and sign up for NP's mass comm or FSV... then i will have a new life... but tat will b running away...

SY told me: there's no point

i dunno... i dunno how to handle the situation at all... i dunno wat i cn do... but i noe i will not b given the chance to do anything.. an opinion is fixed n its difficult to change... i noe it very well... not like i havent dislike anyone up to this point of life...

oh well.. taking one step at a time... i will pull myself together... i will learn to live in loneliness..