|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

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today's e first day back at sch after abt 4 weeks break.. e break is kinda short but nvm.. sch's quite ok... here's e review of a few teacher i have met:

Ms Claire: She's fun but strict. think im going to like her n her lessons.
Mrs Tan: She's VERY fierce but i like e way she tells a joke with a straight face. think im ok with her as long as i finish up her work.
Mr Andrew Ang: absolutely boring lecturer although i thought the lecture for this module (public relations and advertising) will be fun.
Mr Sanjay: He's cool! he really noes his stuff n he scolds words like asshole n hell.. i cn really like this teacher.. his jokes r quite nice.. *grinz*...

oh... n for this sem.. DMC1B05 gonna have 2 new students with us. one is may-ling, the 24-year-old girl tat used to b from 01 n Jonathan Chan who's from year two n down to join us for e whole of thi sem. we have a few module-repeat students with us as well. im not sure abt other modules but we've got one for news writing.. yup..

oh.. so far the lecturers provided us with notes... i wonder whether we gonna copy like e way we did in FOM.. hope not.. but then again... both my lecturers make me sleep... zZzZzZz... copying notes might b a good thing... gee.. i miss Lee Chong Hwa n his funny lectures......

anyway, i was reading cari's blog which linked me to angela's.. their blogs made me think..

cari's sorry for not being there for angela.. angela's sorry tat she gonna leave her frens too.. everybody's sorry tat they dun have enought time for some particular person.. n then i thought, who was i ever there for? i dunno.. sure.. im there for some pple when they need me coz im free.. but have i really went all out to b there for my frens when they need me? strangely enough, i cnt remember... mayb its bcoz i have nv done it..

on the other hand.. does my frenz need me? i always felt tat if i ever die.. nobody will shed a tear.. nobody wld even remember this girl.. im juz another one out of the thousands tat r dying everyday... i have always felt "unwanted".. nobody feels tat im impt.. if i disappear out of everyone's life.. who wld miss me? i dunno e ans.. jieying and kaixian mayb... then no one else.. its onli now i realized im so insignificant.. n it makes me very sad to feel the insignificance...

n now i realised y my phone bill is so high.. coz im always trying to contact someone... so tat i dun feel abandoned by this world...

today is a boring day coz its working day..

was walking in cine during breaktime today n came upon this cartshop tat sells four leavs clover.. apparently, they were saying tat it will bring u good luck.. i remembered reading an article abt it sumwhere n it really seems to work... i thought of purchasing one for they r very pretty as well.. then i saw e price n got a shock of my life... they r all over $50.. goodness gracious me.. i dun think i wanna spend so much...

then when i kinda walked ard.. i came upon the buddha gang... haix.. outta BP alreadi still c em.. so paiseh.. wearing a big LAY's tee shirt then they all stare.. argh.. stupid buddha gang.. X_X...

back from work... n here is e worst pickline i've ever heard in my life..

guy: hey! u look pale..
me: do i?
guy: yar! i think u better give me ur phone number so tat i noe where to get help.
me: ok.. 6*******
guy: oh.. i mean ur handphone number...
me: erm..wats e use of calling my handphone number if i faint when my handphone is with ME?
guy: ...

okay... then my mood suckz for e day coz 1) i got complained at work coz IM NOT USING THE USUAL METHOD OF PROMOTING... hello!!! am i gonna b a robot n repeat every single thing i say?? huh?? then u might as well place a voice recorder there then play it... = =+...

2) coz im disappointed in him again... lately alot of pple change email add then add me in msn.. happily out of so many pple.. none of em is him.. gee.. im giving up... everybody told me not to but i c no reason to hang on.. so im gonna say byebye to him..

hey hey hey!! this is my new blogskin... n GUESS wat?? I DID IT ALL MYSELF~! woohoo~! i cannot blive it.. yes.. i muz admit tat it is very simple but it is still my creation!! ohmygod..

n to everyone who visits my blog: do give me comments on this blogskin alrite?? thnx!!

p.s: i uploaded this into blogskins.com... hope there is good feedbacks!

i cnt help but get angry over the incompetency of Fedex company over a small package of delivery. first of all, sending out a package already requires me to fill out a 3 bloodily complicated forms.. n now there is a mistake in the address but they r taking so long to make e amendments. TMD... dun understand wat e bloody hell they wans...

went for training @ eunos today... its ok.. we ate alot of chips coz wat we're promoting r Lay's chips.. yummy!! now i get to eat them throughout e whole promotion... oh so happy... =)...

cldnt get home in time for GEM registeration so i called up siimynn n asked her to help.. luckily.. i managed to get e module i wan.. discovering music.. wed class.. haha... siimynn registered for e same one as me.. we gonna b classmates!! woohoo!! dun i love her so...

jieying lost her job n i recommended her to demopower... hope she like this job coz i love it.. hehe...

damn... e buyer retains my money coz e package got prob.. damn it...

i slept @ 3am yesterday n i woke up @ 7.15am this morning to have breakfast with my family.. aint i a nice good girl? *grinz*... we ate kaya n butter bread, 2 eggs n tea @ e coffee shop near out hse.. yummy.. i love it sooo much... esp with my family.. (i sound like im tryin to promote the family campaign... haha)

we shopped ard @ yishun.. wee~~.. back ard at my old neighbourhood.. everything changed but we've got so much cheap stuffs!! aint i glad i went... nice shopping spree..

then i went to sentos to meet up with jieying n b bimbos @ e beach.. lol.. we played cards n went to hang ard in e sea n wrote names in e sand.. we did an extra big one too... for two names.. =P... cnt b bothered to give too much details le coz im really tired out.. then we wanted to go somewhere but dunno where we go so we went to e mrt line map n anyhow point.. it landed on e NEL twice.. jieying pointed to Little India (coz she's thinking of grassjelly u c) n i pointed to Hougang.. hehe.. e thing is.. make a guess who lives at hougang.. yarlar yarlar... JW lar.. haha... then we went to hougang then hang ard then we went home..

ohmygod.. im soooo tired today... my head feels heavy... comfirm working this weekend @ takashimaya.. argh... tired out... but i wan e money...

work's ok... a bit stressed but its ok... my uniform had this fisherman's hat tat reminded me of guides.. coz its light blue in colour... = =+... e aunties were nice too...

haix... i think im sinking into depression... =(... lookin at e babes all ard me makes me feel tat im so far away from their level... i always have pretty babes ard me.. haha... i bet guys will anything to b in my shoes.. haha... too bad u dun! but then again... it still makes me depressed coz they r so pretty! argh.. im so superficial...

n i hate u... stop lying to me.. i feel cheated...

shit.. all my posts r on jinwen.. anyway..

i juz realised i cld have seen jinwen last year but then i didnt coz i did not attend Energy's mini concert in NYP last year!! coz i need to get prepared for e cheerleading performance... jinwen actually danced the opening for energy!! (with other pple lar)... argh... n then there some photos n stuff lar.. but now cannot c le.. coz i think e system doesnt support anymre.. haix.. so sad... i wanna c jinwen n my energy together lar.. haha....

i woke up @ at 7am this morning trying to pull myself outta bed n drag myself to eunos.. but i really cldnt do it.. after some serious thinking, i realised i dun really need to work so desperately so i called up patrick n told him im not feeling well n thus not gonna work.. i deserve a small break...

damn.. im such a lazybum...

n now i cnt get back to sleep... wtf...

n i still hate working @ great world city...

oh... jinwen finally updated his bloglinks.. haha... now i c alot more pple in it including chao.. damn.. chao really got e same blogskin as me...

one more think to scold damn abt... i juz remembered something after reading some guy de blog... jinwen is graduating for NYP!! (u might ask wats e bloody big deal but plz read on) which means he will have no more sch... which means the government will send him a letter... which means he's going to NS soon!! damn... im stuck at a stage where all age eligible guys r going to NS.. NS kills all kinds of bloody relationship... i'll nv a get a bf who is in NS... sure breakup de... very good example: me n edwin lor...

i finally saw suiyan's photo.. erm... not very nice leh.. >_<...

sometimes i think jinwen is abit simple in e mind... "ah pUaz saw his face, when he was being interviewed, on the screenz in the function room! ah pUaz’ team memberz was like: “hEy! How come uR face's on the screen?!” lOlz! ah pUaz heard tt his face appeared on the screen a few timez. ah pUaz lookz great on screen ya?! lOlz! oh yEAh! ah pUaz oso heard from his relativez tt there were screamz when his face appeared on the screenz! iSh tt true?! mAn! I feel like a star! lOlz!"... now i understand y he's always called ku-ku

i muz admit tat im still very sore abt my results.. damn..

i went out with JY today.. wee~! nth betta to do n we juz walked ard... we ate a-foot-long sandwich from Subway!! i almoz died from it.. argh.. n jy still got e cheek to tell me tat she's not full!! damn.. i wonder wat's her stomach made of.. >_<... but we'll go again nxt time alrite?? *grinz*..

oh.. btw... i dropped a 50cents coin into e singapore river near esplanade... those pple who so like to go fish for dead bodies might like to keep a lookout for it.. *grinz*...

n jy was making a very big deal tat this blogskin is tat of chao's... im so sorry but i didnt noe!! oh... n i wun change it.. haha.. so live with it.. =P... haha.. kiddin lar.. will change when i find a better one...

im working @ GWC again tml... y muz my company always post me there? i get so irritated there... hmph.. i'll live with it bcoz of e money...

yes.. im determined to do it.. hmph... even if i embarass myself...

juz checked my results.. here it is:

Creative Communication - A
Desktop Publishing - B
Information Technology for Business - B
Character Development - B+
Oral Communication - C+
ICP - C+
FOM - D+

GMA (or wateva it is) : 2.74...

like i expected.. i flunked FOM.. but at least i passed...

damn edwin... he disappears for 5 days n now it seems like its my fault... wat kind of bloody shit is this?? one week... if he doesnt apologizes in one week.. im going to send him packing n say byebye to him... damn...

oh!! steezerz might b taking part in another competition soon~! this time i will not b able to film but then again... as long as i get to c jinwen i guess its ok.. =)

oh well.. i havent been toking to edwin for 4 days... plz dun fucking well come n ask me wat happened... go ask him... i dun fucking hell care abt this idiot anymre.. i wan a breakup!!! argh... ok ok.. i noe its stupid to break up like tat.. wateva ok?? im not going to care anymore... bloody hell... argh...

haix... jinwen's upset.. i think its got something to do with his frenz... or mayb his girlfren.. dunno lar.. haix... hope there is something i cn do to cheer him up.. but i cnt even contact him.. haix.. feel so useless.. >_<...

still working @ GWC today... n im onli 13 mins late!!! woohoo~! tat ought to call for a celebration.. im usually at least 30 mins late for GWC... hello~!! tat bus always take so fucking long lar... cannot blame me..

yeah~! i ate tiramisu today~! tat guy working for e online cold storage treat de.. yummy!! i once heard somebody says tat tiramisu cn bring out e happiness in u... but i was ok.. haha...

still coughing badly.. argh...

yesterday suckz coz i lay in e bed e whole day wishing tat my 39degrees fever would go away as its making me miserable... then it finally did... so i turned out ok.. but im still coughing badly today... to think i drank so much water already.. im getting healthy these few days... woohoo~! then cn my fats go away too?? *pleading to god*

worked @ Great World City cold storage.. im surprised everybody still remembers me!! esp e 190m tall manager.. wee~! haha... he's still so funny... but unfortuantely im not under him this time... im under some stupid horrible woman named rose (go n find ur jack in titanic lar!! haha.. ok.. i noe not funny)... then all e competitive aunties selling dairy products (im selling yoghurt by e way) all looks like they wanna kill me coz i snatch their business away.. bloody hell..

oh!! i didnt noe cold storage have online delivery services!! tats so cool!! u order wateva u wan online then u c these pple going ard in numbered trolleys to get ur items off e shelves n send em off to u! so convenient... haha... its fun watching these pple... sales not bad today.. but i hate e travelling time.. argh...

argh... im going to b sick... or mayb im alreadi sick... =(... at first e symptons are coming but after today's steamboat... i think im ready to die... heavy flu n sore throat... feeling so warm.. argh..

went out with jieying n kaixian n sara n lynn.. wee~! so long nv go out together le... haha... had steamboat at marina bay.. yum yum!! i arrives 1/2 hour earlier due to miscalculation of time n i ended up taking a walk in e wonderful environment of marina bay... trees n grass everywhere.. haha.. such a condusive environment to think... so i started thinking abt alot of stuffs.. shhhhh... cannot say.. *grinz*...

e food's nice but i accidentally burnt my hand.. now got a small scar.. hope it will go away quickly...

jieying bought tat top from future state!! i wanna get e other top tat i eyed too!! argh.. my money for e vcam better come quickly.. i dun mind sendin away my vcam now.. lol.. argh... n she bought e tees from zara which i wan too!! n so many things i wan... shit lar!! how to save for taiwan?? argh...

jux changed blogskin.. i noe e colours suckz but make do lar.. when im better i'll sit down n make it rite.. argh...

sia lar.... today i read aidi's blog then read abt her fun time attending mayday de autograph session... stupid aidi!!! u make me miss energy!! argh... which leads back to e fact tat i wanna KILL 牛奶!!

these few days have been working @ novena square de cold storage... promoting yoghurt.. haha.. i ended up eating pretty much of e samples myself coz they r soooo delicious! sales was ok so im pretty glad...

finally sold my video camera which will b on its way to america very soon... spending my last few days with it well.. haha... i wun miss it.. after its gone.. i'll save up for a new n better one.. =P... im juz so not easily satisfied.. haha...

went window shopping today n saw so many things i wanna buy.. hehe... to think im still trying to save for taiwan trip.. $2000 leh...

nv went for my first day @ carl's jr.. hehe.. wateva lar...

不好意思﹐本人還是覺得牛奶是個白痴
如果說牛奶退團是為了圓當老師的夢想
我會支持他
畢竟每個人都有自己的夢想。
可是如果牛奶退團是為了加入“台風”
不好意思，我無法諒解

我記得你曾經說過
只要有歌迷在的一天﹐就會有Ｅｎｅｒｇｙ
阿弟當初說要休息
回不回來是個未知數
但是歌迷都明白﹐這是不能避免的
我們也不希望阿弟每天那麼辛苦﹐痛苦
牛奶﹐你的情況不一樣
是你拋棄了我們
你那些美麗的承諾，都是騙人的嘛﹖

什麼“Ｅｎｅｒｇｙ永遠不會解散”
什麼“你們會回來”
什麼“永遠不說再見”
都是騙人的

每次我都相信Ｅｎｅｒｇｙ不會騙我們
尤其是你
因為你是團長
也是我當中最尊敬的團員

我覺得自己好像是白痴
傻傻的相信你
愛迪很生氣
我也不例外

我看錯你了

juz saw our new timetable... it suckz completely!!... we've got 3 days of 5 pms... at first i thought it was a comfort tat we've got 2 days of 12pmz we meants we can go home early!! wee~! *takes pom poms n wave ard*... then i suddenly remembered tat on wednesday (a 12pm-cn-go-home day), i've got JAP class which means its still a late day for me.. n not forgetting e GEMs which r not yet included in e time tables... wat a bloody horrible time-table.. argh...

i cnt wait to leave sp...
i cnt wait to go taiwan nxt year...
i cnt wait to go sakae sushi...
i cnt wait to go ice-skating...
i cnt wait to go wild-wild-wet...
i cnt wait to turn 18...
i cnt wait to see my darling...
i cnt wait to meet new pple...
i cnt wait to work (wat a miracle!!)...

ohmygod!! so many things tat i cnt wait... but yet i have to wait.. wat kind of logic is this?? so sad lor...

P.S: I'll b adding a password to my blog soon... so if u guys still wanna come my blog.. please kindly enquire me abt e password... coz got some pple i hate coming to me blog.. >_<...

im so tired... went for Carl's jr Burger de interview today.. got it immediately... e manager wanted me to start work tml but i cnt so decided to start work nxt monday.. will train at Marina Square first b4 going to Suntec to work at e new outlet when it is ready.. erm.. pay not really veyr good but ok for me lar.. as long as i get to work during weekdays then cn save money for taiwan trip...

stupid lawrence havent call me regarding new job for this weekend.. think dun have le lor.. argh... i wanna kill lawrence!!

haix.. i will hate it alot when sch reopens.. nvm... there will b some things to look forward to de.. i hope...

met up with my 1031 buddy today.. i juz soooo love hanging out with her.. lol... we went cycling @ east coast, in hope of getting rid of all e fats... unfortunately... we dig into ice-cream after cycling n so it makes not much difference...

wondering where to go n so we went to marina square then ate Carl's Jr Burger... almost die of bursting after we r done.. haha.. then we talked alot.. =).. glad she's ard..

hehe.. we made a pact to save up for taiwan trip @ e end of nxt year... each person muz save $2000... taiwan.. here we come!!

i finally found some time to meet up with cari n yating today... after such a long time of not seeing em.. i cn REALLY say tat i miss em!

we met up today with no idea at all where we r heading... so guess where we ended up yet? CAUSEWAY POINT.. its likes our 2nd home practically! haha... we watched corpse bride n i dun understand y is it tat such animations r always so short? e last time we watched valiant, its only for an hour.. corpse bride is only 15 mins longer... cnt say there is an improvement or watsoeva shit.. lol..

yating need to get her sports bra so we kind of shopped a little.. haha.. me n cari kept on tokin abt bras.. hahaha...then we have nowhere to go n we ended sitting @ yoshinoya (coz everywhere else's full)... pretty much updated yating on all e big happenings in our lives... she was shocked tat cari n i still keep in such close contacts n we knew everything abt each other.. haha...

then cari need to go home to study for her promos...

me n yating headed down to cityhall n went to marinq square to check out her boss @ carl's jr... didnt manage to get a good look coz its so crowded n busy... gee.. then we juz walked ard with nowhere to go lar..

both yating n cari said i've become FAT... argh... although i dun like it but i gotta agree... nvm.. diet!! ahha... say onli lar.. u noe i wun do it.. =P... n they tell me i look like a rich girl.. hello!! my pockets r burning for goodness sake... im not anywhere near AVERAGE...