Saturday, July 26, 2008
A friend left for Taiwan on 24th July...
My jiemei left for Bangkok the very next day...
I'm stuck here in Singapore...
Now all I have to look forward to is the things that they have been requested to bring back for me... But my jiemei is not exactly very safe because he has a tendency to throw me to the back of his brains... damn..
I want to go Bangkok / Hongkong / KL / Taiwan / Japan...
Drop me an airticket...
BUH-bye
1:28 am
Friday, July 18, 2008
Sometimes I wish that I was easier with the things that are happening around me.
It doesn't even have to involve me but I can get so worked up that people tend to assume that I'm the one in a fix. Often, I'm just angry on behalf of the person who have suffered. I cannot bear to see injustice done, even if it is not really the case.
A relationship is just between two, not. It brings in the people around you, friends or families.
I'm at the peak of my anger and I've got no idea what to say anymore.
I'm sorry that my house is not good enough for you to play mahjong in. Or perhaps our company is not worthy of you? I do not see the point of spending the cabfare home when I could have been sitting in the comfort of my own home and playing the exact same game, with a slight difference in players, perhaps. I do not see the need to hang out with your friends, whom I do not even know. I do not even know you exactly, as a matter of fact.
Screw you.
BUH-bye
5:04 pm
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
I didn't expect to have such complicated feelings when we talked to an old, old friend... And old BEST friend, in fact.
The threesome of a friendship was really great at the peak of its days. We were young, insane, daring and just practically loyal to each other. It was the kind that you just end up seeing each other everyday, without knowing why. Hanging out just seems like the right thing to do. We were important to each other, we know. We stopped him from smoking and he never did, not in front of us, anyway. And he always knows that he should walk away when his mouth stank. I came to know later that he never let someone else stopped him from smoking again without getting pissed off. But back, you were never angry even if we confiscated your cigarettes at the few rare times they got exposed.
I always loved the platonic friendship between two girls and a guy. It was not as simple as I thought (to be found out just today) but that was how it is to me for these 2 years.
And then, outsiders, history and our own selfish feelings killed the simple relationship. It involved alot of backstabbing, tears, gossips and a serious of pain of heart. I do not want to think back to those days but even till now, I questioned myself on the decision I made so long ago. Was that the truth or did I really wronged him?
We didn't have any contact until today. Spontanity spurred us. It brought memories back in pails and buckets.
And now, I don't know what to think anymore. The old days will never be back. And I will miss it.
BUH-bye
3:44 am
Saturday, July 12, 2008
I think that I must have been fated to enter the media industry. Or maybe its because Mediacorp is so fun that no one really wants to leave it. But of course, the workload is horrible. Its the company that matters.
I always knew that I'm not cut out to be in an administrative job. I just cannot sit in an office the whole day, with only lunch to look forward to. I prefer jobs that allows interaction. Mediacorp let me gets outside and runs around. I couldn't be more thankful.
"I am Perfect" had let me worked with people like Pornsak and Calvin who are so funny that we had a roaring time in the bus between stops and it never felt like work at all. Although I was not there for every episodes, its the familiarity in there that you know you can just speak what you want. I think I felt more at ease with them than with my AP.
"Sheng Siong Live Show" was an initial stresser because its LIVE and you are not allowed to make any mistake. There is no retake for it which made rehearsals very important. Desmond and Kym are great people who bestowed all the crew with food every saturdays. Sugar rolls, curry puffs, doughnuts, buns, cupcakes n e nonya kuehs are unforgettable. I think my AP is already planning what is to be bought for the last episode which is next week, with today being the second last. And I thank the show for letting me get to see the artistes I like without having to make my way down to their signature sessions etc, and even has a chance to interact with them. Thanks to them, I've seen F.I.R, Gary Cao and Kenji Wu. I will miss the crew and the rehearsals which are always so funny. L is no longer allowed to pickup rehearsal phone calls because what happened will always happen in the night.
I really really do want to go back to mediacorp.. Damn, I miss the place.
BUH-bye
11:40 am
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I was on e bus home today when I got really pissed off e moment I boarded it. The bus was quite empty but it was quite a task for me to get a seat.
Why?
Because of the stupid OLs and Aunties who have brains as big as a pea and cannot be considerate enough to others!
Everyone knows that our buses come in double seats. So I really cannot understand why is it that some of those people just got to seat on the outside seat, leaving the internal seat empty but yet cannot be taken! Did SMRT, SBS and Translink created their bus such that e moment your butt touches e internal seat, you will die?? I have sat so many times on the inside and I'm very much alive!
And the worse thing is that, when you attempt to get into the seat on the inside, they just merely shifted their bodies to the side and expect you to crawl through that small space between them and the seat in front and yet NOT get your butt in their faces. That's quite difficult, even for a kid, alright?
So if you bloody people do not want to sit on the inside or stand up to let people get that seat or get a butt in your face, you guys better shoo off the buses. Jolly well go and get your own cars.
Inconsiderate bitches.
BUH-bye
10:17 pm
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Had Suki buffet with KX and JY on friday. As usual, we were crapping all e way and I became e target this time... =(... Session of mahjong with JY, her boyfren n his BP mates... I've got no idea to say whether I enjoyed it or not. The company was the one thats odd and seriously, its not even the new people I know. My face flushes pink and I tried to act cool about it. Well, I brought the person. But his behaviour upsetted me. It felt like an elder sister bringing the little boy out when you were supposed to be 3 years older.
Saturday went to midnight KTV with e NS boys because we just wanted to sing. Cheers to them as they waited till I end work.
my jiemei enjoyed himself with all his rock songs.. see how involved he is... and i have never hear junhao sing despite knowing him for 9 years... ohmygod...
BUH-bye
2:21 am