|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

|Forgottened|

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argh... my mum has been bothering me ever since i came back.. keep telling me i've grown fatter.. = =+.. yes i noe.. juz stop reminding me!!! argh.. need to start some action on diet.. !@#$%^&*

blame e taiwan food!! !@#$%^&

perhaps, we do not measure frenship by money.. but then again, how much ur frens spend on u n who spend on u n e effort of everything does shows how impt u r to em.. it still comes ard to how much of a heart they put into it all.. how much time n resources?

some pple r juz of no value, i guess..

no matter how much of an effort was put in for others, they dun have to reciprocate it... when u r nt impt, it juz means tt.. plain n simple.. n they show it..

they r nice to u, bcoz they r nice pple...

n for u? juz learn to read e signs.. mayb im thinkin too much.. but tt was how i felt.. value cn b measured by alot... busy is not an excuse.. we all noe it.. if u had wanted to do it, u cld... if u had wanted to plan it, u wld...

well, dun b misunderstood by this post tt i didnt had a fun time in my taiwan trip.. dun worry, had an awesome time.. =).. thnx jieying, for going through everything with me.. *muackz*...

updates on taiwan trip coming up! (as long as i have e time n nt too lazy)

leaving later in e day for tw for 10 days...

plz tell me, my boy, tt u'll miss me? for its hard to let go now..

寄　沒有地址的信
這樣的情緒　有種距離

你　放著誰的歌曲
是怎樣的心情　能不能說給我聽

雨　下得好安靜
是不是你　偷偷在哭泣
幸福(它)真的不容易
在你的背景　有我愛你

我可以　陪你去看星星
不用再多說明　我就要和你在一起
我不想　又再一次和你分離
我多麼想每一次的美麗　是因為你

human beings ALWAYS regrets... think abt it..

how many times in ur life had u think abt "if onli i did/didnt..."?

its like part n parcel of life... some pple hate regretting n thus, they think carefully b4 every single decision.. n sometimes, they think too much.. certain things u juz have to follow ur heart n let it rule u.. ur brain is not suitable for makin every single decision..

alot of times, juz follow wat u really wan...

n i miss u dear...

*point to note*
shit ass.. it sounds so easy on blog.. cnt seems to apply it in real life though..

missing someone cn b very simple..

u dun have to c em..

u juz have to have em in ur heart..

i've learnt tt.. have u?

i was e one who started it wth my insecurities.. n tt i was selfish enough to not wan to hurt myself.. so i'd rather hurt him i guess..

n then when its over, n tt he gave me e assurance tt i needed..

he started it all over again..

like i told my best fren abt it.. abt him.. n he's not happy..

not one to forgive.. hah... well, we shall c how this thing goes.. for we gonna "get a break n think abt it"

oh my... i juz realised tt my poly fren's current bf used to b wooing one of my polymates.. wat a coincidence..

n gordon came to sakae to eat today with his gf.. didnt wan to c him but i had to.. didnt serve his table though.. pushed to wheehong.. hahaha.. dun feel like facing him still..

i dun like e backstab..

an old "fren"came to view my frenster profile.. after a very long time.. n i almost forgottened abt his existance...

once a very impt fren in my life tt i thought we might juz last like this forever... like e 3 of us wld nv get seperated... like we'll always b there for each other... god played a joke on us, didnt he? wat a change of events..

now, if we ever come across each other, we'll juz pass by like we're strangers.. no one wld have thought of e history tt lies bhind us.. tt was once a very happy time..

like how we dragged each other out juz for supper or to meet for lunch in sch.. or to attempt to throw each other down drains.. or juz simply walking along e road.. or out for a drink.. seems like there's an endless list of things for us to do.. n we always had fun doing em...

well, good things come to an end eventually n u were e one who killed it all.. i was e one who beared with e pain, having a knife in my back.. i nv saw it coming... n i wldnt have bothered but e person involved was a so trusted fren..

things might have passed bt i cnt bring myself to forgive u still for i have yet to convince myself tt u didnt mean it... or tt u have changed for e better... u r something tt i have given up.. something tt isnt worth a mention anymre..

mayb one day, we'll b frens again.. mayb one day, we'll talk again.. but nv will we go back to e good old days... i've grown up n seen e true u...

i used to lie alot..

lying was as common as eating to me.. but tt was back then.. there came a turn of events where now i hate lying so much... tt i dun do it anymre..

i onli remembered lying once this year.. n its such a big lie tt i feel so bad abt it.. i dun have much of a choice though.. n its for a good purpose i guess.. i dun wan to hurt or cause anyone trouble if i had spoken e truth...

this lie will carry on.. n it will onli b exposed when e time is right for me to tell..

but then.. i dun understand e lying purpose of some pple anymre.. wats e pt? it doesnt even concern me... i cn jolly well not bother... i was hoping for e best.. for ur sake.. n i got a lie in return... i dun c a need for u to lie... wats e pt of telling me something worse than its supposed to b? its not like its any of my business... i juz dun understand y did u had to lie over something tt i wldnt have control over or feel anything.. it isnt as if u had to face competition from me again like it as back then...

sometimes, humans r weird..