Thursday, November 30, 2006
不會有任何結果了.
說清楚了.
是朋友了.
一切都結束了.
我承認,我有舍不得.但是,這是對的抉擇.
我們都害怕對方會受到傷害.要結束,就應該趁早.等到心已經痛過了.就太遲了
這種時候,你和我都沒有辦法為彼此付出,全心全意的去把對方規劃為生活的一部分.我沒有辦法進入你的生活,就好象你在我生活圈外徘徊一樣.我沒有辦法說服自己那差異不存在.我們都知道,現在不可能為對方負責,也沒有那個時間去陪彼此.
我們...都還沒有做好心理準備.
或許有有一天,我們會再次出發.
這一次,我們會準備好的.
如果有那么一天,或許我們會排除所有的困難,一直到永遠.
也或許我們會很短暫.
但是,謝謝你給我過的快樂.我真的不會忘記我認識過你.=)
雖然心有點痛.
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謝謝你的溫度 記憶留在最初
謝謝你曾讓我 幸福
BUH-bye
10:44 pm
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
e 6k guys r funny.. damn funny.. me n eric n junhao n herrick was toking abt gatherings to NS to girls to relationships to sex to politics to fairytales.. geez.. we sure cn crap like shit.. damn glad to be toking to u guys again!! i missed u guys!!
(n we forced junhao to admit tat he's got a crush on ann but he refused to.. bah..)
on e other hand, camp sucks.. seriously.. dun care NS camp or sch camp or even CHURCH camp.. camp sucks... damn it.. camp organizers shld all go n die...
BUH-bye
3:09 pm
Sunday, November 26, 2006
runner for today.. first time work weekend runner.. damn it lar.. feel so useless... jam like shit.. need leeping n chenguo's help... desperate!! argh... but totally not much sense of urgency today.. >_<... bah... im weak...
haiz... everyone says matthew/wiliam is cute.. xavier oso cute... jealous.. *pouts*.. y nobody say i cute!!
BUH-bye
3:24 am
Saturday, November 25, 2006
i think i juz turned insane.. i muz have been pretty crazy..
oh god, save me...
BUH-bye
12:19 pm
Friday, November 24, 2006
i muz b crazy to b blogging at 5.36am, as e clock bside my com reads...
i didnt sleep e whole nite..
was finishing e video b4 e deadline's up n then later on to finish e research allocated for AM... damn it.. left with not much time to sleep n i dun dare to sleep coz i noe i'll NV b able to wake up on time later for sch.. might as well forfeit e sleep.. zZzZzZz.. but im soooo sleepy now...
they seriously shldnt start sch at such an early hour..
haiz... im recalling all e stuff tat ive forgotten.. e times when im still liking jinwen.. oh man.. e feelings back again... shit. seriously dun understand myself now.. but one thing im sure.. like wat i told jieying.. if im gonna use jinwen as a standard for my future bfs, im gonna remain single for e rest of my life.. for jinwen was e most perfect guy i cld ever find... he fits all e bill...
now, how am i supposed to find someone BETTER??
n here's something random:
jieying, u r damn lucky.. stop taking advantage of him!! haha.. i didnt do tat to jinwen in e past!!
BUH-bye
5:36 am
Thursday, November 23, 2006
its kind of ironice how pple can actually say stuff like if pple dun like em, they r horrible pple bcoz u r so angelic.. seriously, where do pple get such an idea from? if pple doesnt like u, doesnt it means tat u have a problem urself? pple dun dislike u for no reason rite? some pple shld juz think abt this instead of blaming others for not liking u..
sure, there r some assholes out there who simply dun like pple bcoz of e way others look...
but if its e majority who doesnt like u.. then u shld reflect...
i guess im not in much of a position to say this but when i heard tat there were pple who think tat way, im kind of amazed.. kind of shameless..
nvm.. they cn think wat they like... i doubt i will come into contact with pple like tat...
BUH-bye
9:27 pm
To Yiqin n XueLi:
go take a look at e-learning for our gems class.. he already posted up e assignment tat we have to hand in by e end of e sem.. haha.. grp proj.. 3 of us le lor.. hahaha.. n i dun understand a single shit on it.. oh no.. hahah... big trouble..
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i cn onli say im a sucker for sweetness... save me!!!
BUH-bye
2:16 am
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
this is really none of my business but im gonna blog abt it so tat clement will remember this day... but he doesnt read my blog leh.. = =+...
today, clement kissed his girlfren!! its his FIRST KISS.. wahhahaha... so funny.. n i gave him e opportunity to.. dotz.. he really have to thank me properly... keep making use of his sister.. hmph...
haiz.. then when it happened, he immediately called me up to tell me abt it.. at first super happy for him.. then later abit sad for myself.. hahahaha... wahlao.. lose to clement le lor.. >_<...
bah... lonely... im so lonely...
n i really think im out of my mind.. e stuff tat i googled on lately.. or rather, tat THING/PERSON tat i googled on.. i seriously dun understand myself...
furthermore, i did e deleting thing again today.. wasnt tat how i am? deleting numbers when things doesnt go my way n then seriously regreting it all later coz i wan to contcat tat person again.. but... regrets r regrets... wats done is done.. now we cn onli c n watch how things continues...
BUH-bye
12:28 am
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
im so sick of studying.. seriously... arh... wat if i fall into depression?
seriously trying to consider job oppotunities which there is no need for papaer qualifications.. difficult sia..
not tall, not pretty, not attractive, not photogenic, not talented..
damn to myself...
n e Mr-I-Am-There-To-Support-You is sooooooooooo not there... perhaps bcoz no one has taken up tat position yet.. n its been opened for interviews for a long time.. sure, a few had turned up but they didnt even get through e door... a few BARGED in on their own but.. oh well.. n e headhunting company i've hired gave up on tat initial candidate who is oh-so-good.. now, anyone gonna find me a Mr-I-Am-There-To-Support-You?
im getting a serious headache from all tat oversleeping.. mayb i shld start some mental work for e mind.. i'll ave to take on e old responsibilities again.. i'll have to find back tat old Joanne Yeo Xin Le who existed like 10 years ago? That little hardworking girl.. bah.. talk abt self-discipline...
BUH-bye
4:38 pm
Monday, November 20, 2006
this is seriously like e nightmare b4 xmas.. i totally didnt expect this whole episode to happen... i thought i handled it well.. i juz didnt noe some pple r more daring than i thought... i shld have known though... hearing e stories.. daredevil..
i juz dun wan to think abt it anymre.. oh.. n apologizes seriously aint gonna work...
i dunno wat to think...
on e other hand.. i met up with clement today!!! i havent seen him for like a year.. n e moment he saw me, he have to hear me grumble.. poor guy...
n he joined some youth flying club! my little brother gonna b a pilot in e future!! how cool cn tat get?? i wonder if i cn get free airtickets...
n he said i look like 14 years old.. = =+.. do i look TAT young if i wear a polo tee n tie my hair up??
BUH-bye
1:00 am
Friday, November 17, 2006
tired out all over.. physically n emotionally drained...
i've always been e weaker kind of person, choosing to run away if its an option to take.. now, everything tat i've ran away from is coming back to me n im going to take it all at one go...
how nice if i have tat special someone by my side.. haiz...
BUH-bye
1:16 am
Thursday, November 16, 2006
it was don's last day today.. i'm so gonna miss tat donburi.. awww.. without him in sakae crapping with us, work is gonna b boring if e part-timers aint there as well!!
thnx don, for always entertaining us during work n making us laugh, for tolerating our non-stop chatter, for treating us to stuff when u actually didnt need to... u r e most fun manager i've come acrossed in sakae... i always thought its pretty amazing how quickly u fit into e family.. we dun accept pple in tat readily! n now u gonna go, all of us will miss ya so much..
haiz.. work gonna b boring soon...
BUH-bye
1:04 am
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
e royal GOD up there is seriously unfair (n im hereby referring to gods n deities of all religion, i respect pples' religions k?)..
if onli everyone in e whole world cn look like this:
or mayb look like these:
now, wldnt e world b a better place? there wun b any low self esteems, no comparision, every girl will feel happy juz going out coz u wun worry abt looking good or not (u r already looking great!) n everyone will b happy...
its also a great way to get rid of bastard thoughts of bastards who seems to think tat looks r everything.. these pple juz pisses me off e way they r sooooo superficial..
so wat if a girl wasnt good-looking? is tat a crime? cnt u c e beauty tat lies beneath tat superficial shell? everyone has flaws... u guys aint tat good-looking urself so who r u to judge pple like tat??
i thought u were a fren n u seemed pretty nice enough even if u told me im ugly.. i admit it n i thought of it as no big deal.. it juz doesnt give u e right to come ard n throw insults at my frens whom i love alot.. n u r NOT good-looking at all.. so dun assume tat all girls shld drop at ur feet.. clean ur eyes n take a good look.. I DIDNT FALL HEAD OVER HEELS FOR U, E WAY U THOUGHT I WLD HAVE... for god's sake.. jinwen is at least 1000000000000 times better looking than u r.. n at least he's NICE...
so shut ur big mouth up n stop contacting me, u asshole.. i dun have frens of this kind..
oh.. but u dun read my blog.. bcoz u dun have a computer at home n almost illiterate to profound english.. tats mean.. but its a FACT...
now go sit in a corner n wait for e government to send u a letter n straight into NS u go! good riddance...
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on e other hand, plz let god bless e pple u ought to bless n let em come to no harm...
BUH-bye
2:32 am
Monday, November 13, 2006
love is not attainable by everyone.. someone have to b left out of e game...
BUH-bye
8:32 pm
ok... im getting a little sentimental.. after someone juz gave me a chapter of a story abt how good a fren att ruiping is.. hahaha...
yeah.. so im dedicating this entry to her..
thnx bud, for being there when i needed ya... when im upset, i dunno y u turn upset oso.. but nvm... crying on e same day.. abit weird arh.. lolz.. thnx for being reliable n always ready to lend a shoulder or a hand... listening to me nagging.. let me suan u until i happy (wahahahha!!!)...
really really appreciate it all... yupz.. =)...
(by now u shld b crying)
but of coz lar.. i appreciate e rest of my sakae peeps too!! hahaha.. u guys r one of e best things tat ever happened in my life... i nv regretted noeing each n single one of u guys...
jieying, kaixian, carina.. i think i need not say much.. u guys noe wat roles u guys play in my life.. nth less than impt...
my polymates.. sure.. there were e bad times but its over n im glad tat im part of this class, 05... if i were given a choice, i'll still come.. even if i have to go through e same things.. yupz...
there, everything off my chest...
BUH-bye
1:37 am
sleepless nites r so boring... i shld start stokcing up on cartons of milk to warm up at home.. bah...
BUH-bye
12:31 am
Friday, November 10, 2006
fucked up.. today, e big idea of quitting sakae flashed through my mind, fucked up.. i received something i nv received in my entire life..
A BIG COMPLAINT LETTER...
damn it... write my name so big summre.. insult leh.. i wan to quit le lar!! fuck it...
oh.. n e person who complained me complain jieying at silvo b4.. wahhaha... coincidence.. stupid complain woman...
BUH-bye
12:41 am
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
wahaha.. i shld take a leaf outta simin's book.. haha.. learn from her, in another words..
jieying was practically telling me tat im no longer a girl.. =P.. when she told me tat taiwan's clothes not suitable for me.. >_<...
BUH-bye
10:18 pm
im eating again!!! now, isnt tat nice? haha...
this is wat i ate today!! haha.. LJS.. had it with ying after debrief from Helen Ng.. a proper meal!! hahaha.. but i shit immediately after tat.. its like straight down... or mayb tats e banana this morning... haha.. dunno... but i felt awfully full...
whee~~~~~~~ im saving money!! haha.. its a miracle coz its a habit i abandoned since pri sch.. hahaha...
n c how empty e sch looks during e-learning.. its so pathetic... e Harry Potter staircase look so empty..
sch is so empty now!! woo~~~
BUH-bye
12:42 am
Monday, November 06, 2006
i wasnt eating lately n alot of pple has been tellin me tat its nt healthy.. so i tried to force myself to eat my regular portion like wat i wld do in e past..
then e nxt day, my gastric worked up.. ernest told me i looked pale at work today n he sent me home.. with 2 mins on my punchcard... haiz.. no pay for e day.. waste my mrt fare...
so now e question is, shld i b eating or not??
but i did ate a little something... two bananas n one hotdog puff.. hmm...
n taiwan is driving me crazy.. its on my mind every moment...
BUH-bye
2:47 am
Saturday, November 04, 2006
i realised tat i havent been eating much lately... n its NOT on purpose.. im not on a diet.. i juz dun feel hungry anymore...
i tried to think over wat i put into my mouth today...
a slice of pizza... two mouthfuls of milk (thnx to yiqin)... two sweets.. forgot e brand(thnx to chuyun).. one piece of chocolate (e cadbury bag kind in balls.. i had one ball.. [sounds weird]).. a milkeshake... tats abt all..
which means i onli ate one proper meal.. n tats bcoz my mum forced it down my throat...
wats happening to me??
BUH-bye
1:59 am
Thursday, November 02, 2006
im looking for something to replace this:
this ring old le lar.. looking for something silver with mayb a plain X... cn find for me??
BUH-bye
8:30 pm
its very fun to plan out something.. wahaha.. i like..
like how i look forward to planning our itinery to Taiwan with jieying, kaixian and esther!! travelling with e best pple in my life!! I can't wait..
it'll b all so fun.. now.. e money....
BUH-bye
1:48 am