|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

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these 2 days raining... got a perfect song for it... perfect for my feeling also.. XD...

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替 陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚 一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼
其實 沒有我你分不出那些差別
結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過 別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

anyway, pushed a few guys into e pool today (on permission).. haha.. alot of funny things happened on set!!

Finally be able to get a good rest since i dun get to film much these few days.. yippee!! Now I will be able to do some good catching up... hehe

phone bill came... i was nagged... =(... bt it was very high lar.. all because of the KL trip... sadded.. just slightly below hitting triple digit.. XD...

anyway, lately is all shoot.. stressed up because my director n AD stressed up also... im like 10 shades darker lor.. damn it... funny thing is tt my hands and feets are the darkest... XD

feeling so down tt i've hit the bottom... haiz... its easier to be happy when there's pple around... when im alone, my thought goes back to e same thing n emo myself again... wats wrong with me??

anyway, had a whole day of swimmin pool scenes today.. slightly burnt.. kmiang n sandra were totally red... left location straight to go home since location is at RP... bathed then went out again to meet em for dinner...

bitched n gossiped alot during dinner.. XD.. quite fun.. and we lied to e auntie abt Nat looking like the actor, Nat Ho... hahahahaha.... fun! i wan buffet sia......

mediacorp screwed up my pay... they deducted my cpf contribution all at one go... 4 months worth of it... for a proj tt ended 3 months ago.. damn... tts ALOT of money... y am i paying for finance's mistake??

supposed to have no shoot tml bt in e end was requested to go help out... sian.... will end work late again...

my head is heavy... im cranky... damn...

I TOUCHED A CAT TODAY!!! I CARRIED ONE!!! hahahhaha... its amazing cause i got catphobia... hahaha... bt its such a tiny n cute kitten tt i cnt help it!! bt its still scary when its running around... i realised tt im scared of cat's meow.. arghhhhh...

anyway... song of e day.. hahaha..

最後的風度－羅志祥

沒有人介入 所有人覺得你該滿足
我把心血 全都付出　你為何想要哭
為你作主 讓你受到我的保護
可是你 像受苦 到底是誰難以相處

我給你幸福 你問我什麼才是幸福
這個問題 反而讓我 把你看個清楚
你怕束縛 我的愛沒能把你馴服
你沒有退路 那倒不如爽快結束

就讓你　見識我的風度
你離開　我要不要慶祝
我不怕愛的殘酷 反正我很想跳舞
我最喜歡挑戰孤獨
我也愛　放下包袱
沒有誰 我也不捨得哭
我 我不在乎

你覺得痛苦 我倒不願意為愛受苦
只有這樣 我才做到 對你的背叛寬恕
想你幸福 想不到分手你才幸福
是誰的錯誤 我不認輸 我忍得住

就讓你 見識我的風度
你離開我要不要慶祝
我不怕愛的殘酷 反正我很想跳舞
我最喜歡挑戰孤獨 我也愛放下包袱
沒有誰 我也不捨得哭

我沒有空在乎
就讓你見識我的風度
我忍痛溫柔的祝福
你會一生都記住 我要你銘心刻骨
我最喜歡挑戰孤獨
我也愛放下了包袱
沒有誰 沒難度 我最怕哭
愛要愛得投入 卻不在乎

i loved this song once.. a couple of years ago... e lyrics were nice... n i cried to it even though it was an upbeat song... cnt remember who sent it to me... just found it in gordon's phone again today.. haha...

Notice Me by NB Ridaz

Ohh I wanna let you know
That I'll always love you baby

Sometimes I think about
Everything that we've been through
And I pray that you would just open your eyes
I love you I need you
So please don't throw our love away

Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone
I knew from that night something special went on
It must have been the first kiss
You told me that nobody else in the
world made you feel this
I felt the same way too but
nothing stays the same
I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain
You were the one that always made things right
I promise you this though
you got a friend for life
Maybe one day we can try it again
And maybe things can be a little different
So lets just kiss and say goodbye
Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

All that's mine is yours that's what I said
Treat you with love and respect in everyway
You wanted I gave you need me I was there
Now you treat like if I'm not here
I love you and I need you don't wanna let go
If you want somebody else please let me know
Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside
Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?
I know I'm not perfect but I truly cared
So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there
Just remember I loved you it will never be the same
Gave you everything and you threw it all away

I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me
I've given everything
I loved you endlessly
But when it comes to me
You don't even notice me

I gave you my good and my bad
My heart and my soul,
My trust my money my time,
What more can you ask from a man
Even when times are hard
I held out my arms and held you
Even accepted you through whatever weather
But now I feel it we're at the end of the road
Whatever we had now I gotta let go
Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall
To cover my tears
Wishing I could replace all those wasted years
Of loving someone who couldn't love me back
And now again I gotta start from scratch
But I know I've given you my everything

had been working these few days... im going like zzzz... really tired out...

18th March

Had cramps... quite bad... i was drifting in and out of work mode... everything was actually pretty normal DURING work...

went to bugis after work to look for props... somehow, the torturous crowd left my head spinning and completely weak, since it was already quite bad with e cramps... then rite in e middle of e crowd, i nearly fainted.... it was just a sudden moment when i collapsed...

wanted to take cab back but decided against it when i remembered e 35% surcharge... thought i cn tahan all e way back home... in e end, i onli made it to sembawang station before i had to rush of e station to puke.. = =... damn gross... damn diu lian...

19th March

Went to work... saw Mr TPH again... = =+... i really really dun wanna see him leh! ruin my mood lor! and as usual, he was bloody disgustin... e flirt tone, e words choice.. e bold statements... e disgusting confidence... ARGHHHHHHHHH.... talking abt him ruins my mood... even just THINKING abt him irks me... damn...

Today

Mr TPH texted me.. i was like... DOTS.. seriously, u r freaking old le lor.. like literally! more than 12 years older than me lor!! cn behave urself or not?? u bloody pervert...

Ended work quite late... took mrt home n i actually slept while STANDIN... cldnt blive it... bt didnt fall down or anything... kind of jerk awake then a guy gave up his seat to me because i think he thought i was really too tired.. which i am!!! im already half eyes closed while typing this... zzzzzzz

zzzzzzz

i hate it when pple fly my pigeon or aeroplane or however u call it.. i dun really mind if u let me know b4hand bt i really hate it when its like last min! or like made a date with u then on tt day disappears off e surface of e earth... uncontactable... !@#$%^&*... someone did it for my birthday n until now i have nt forgive her...

now, someone else did it... not e first time...

im sorry bt im not going to give u anymre pigeons or aeroplanes to fly... bye...

anyway, work sucks... argh.. its just a screwed up production on e overall... haiz...

had my first fullday of shoot for my own round...

dying... cast is still ok on the overall bt i think got a few need to buck up... acting skills wise and attitude wise... some onli need to work on one... one particular person needs to work on both...

anywya, shoot is draining me! I came back totally bummed... think im still not use to such early morning hours and an entire day of work.. zzzzzzzz

on e other hand, i bumped into row row row ur boat at wardrobe! finally gt to speak to her! =)

何ではあなたのためにここに留まりたいですか
何でこの考えありましたか
変な...

Hope I got e above right.. XD

been going out alot lately... trying to spend as much time i cn meeting all my frens... b4 i start getting loaded by all e work... it will be especially tiring to come back after shoot... haiz...

n i gt alot of dramas to finish.. hmmm...

went out with gordon for the last time yesterday, before he enters NS, together with jieying... Poor boy... gonna has his head shaved... XD... and i koped his phone.. *evil grins*...

i psycoed him to go n get a polaroid camera which he did! and now im sooooooo tempted to get one myself!! ahhhhhhhh.. i will lar, when payday comes... e photos tt came out r far too pretty!! hahaha...

Work is bad...

Cast is bad... At least, the few I worked with on Monday... Only the 3 with experiences are good...

Die...

Okay, shall give them a chance since this is just the beginning.. but they better change their attitudes... Its pissing... And now we think they are idiots...

Anyway, went out with jiemei today!! It felt like a long time since I last saw him... which was on my birthday! *hearts*... Had dinner then collected his CPU from sim lim... I can't believe tt guy sent his com in without a receipt or even a phone number... He couldnt even really remembers e shop name! *faints*... after tt had desserts..

anyway, at dinnertime, i finally got to noe tt e entire pri sch gang really thought tt gordon was my bf.. = =+.. and apparently i didnt tell my jiemei abt him! which i cldnt remember why i didnt.. hahaha... then my jiemei went "who is this gordon guy?!?!"... hahaha... then e pri sch gang thought he jealous! bwahahaha... jiemei, now i noe how much u love me! hahahaha...

yar... and now got pple cannot accept gordon in my life le... damn... Gordon Chia Rong!! You see how much you are lowering my chances of getting a boyfren??? LOL...

他說他很愛她 他說會守護她
他送她玫瑰花 一切美得不像話
從朋友變成情人 她不再只有自己
他愛她愛得徹底 真心溢滿了甜蜜

時間看清一個人 開始令人昏沉沉
他像變了一個人 太蠻橫
她開始懸著疑問 不想再等他承認
不再要任何傷痕
[誰愛誰] 誰又流乾了眼淚
[誰後悔] 難分難捨太傷悲
[他愛誰] 誰應該止住眼淚
[她心碎] 誰又該乾脆離開
[誰愛誰] 誰又能反反覆覆
[誰後悔] 誰在忍受著孤獨
[誰瞭解] 他退出 她孤獨
愛得太盲目

Reached home at 9am in the morning today... took another quick bath before I plop straight to bed.... zzzzzz all e way till abt 12plus before i took yet ANOTHER bath (its really too hot lately and i already had one at 2am in e morning)... Jiawei, Jieying & Zhiyang came over to play mahjong.. hehehe... but i lost... unfortunately... and it was really just bad luck because I didn't even throw out any tiles to let people win... Its usually e rest who did it then I have to pay.. sian!!

After they left, jieying stayed at my house and we had a very long chat sesssion... still fun! Haha... Looked up for university stuff after that and only to realise that my backup plan for taiwan is VERY EXPENSIVE... reason being? Communication courses are under University of Baffalo which is very much more expensive than other universities... You'd probably pay something like $20k+ to finish the course under UOL but under UOB its $50k+.... and UOB is e onli university that offers communcation courses full-time! I'm really not very interested in all the Business courses too... Too bad they don't have language courses which I kind of look forward to too...

Really, its nothing Science or Maths...

Went to watch "Role Models" with Gordon... Its a funny movie.. with alot of reference to sex, unfortunately.. XD...

Anyway, a funny thing took place in a little shop in The Cathay.. It sells things like notebooks and stuff that's very special...

Me: OMG! Look at that!
Gordon: *points* The Catalog of Handjobs!
*grabs the book and flips open*
Me: Its all about drawing techniques and stuff
Both: Chey!
*turns n stare at each other*
Both: WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!

Wahahaha...

KL trip was very fun!! It felt like a school outing.. Haha...

Day 1
First afternoon went shopping at Sungei Wang cause its just right outside our hotel... Bought a few items.. not alot.. Had lunch at this HK cafe place... We went the whole time saying cold jokes.. hahaha... Marie is so funny lorrr... Then Sam & XXX also very funny... cause they r computers got reformatted... forgot all e jokes.. haha

Head off to Damansara for Patrick's steamboat treat! He own that place... Had alot of laughter on the way... He had this valet kind of person at the entrance then when the person tried to direct him somewhere else to park, patrick went like "boss! boss! boss!" before the person finally got it. Haha...

It was a very sumptous dinner!! Everything was so fresh, all alive and kicking!! Yummmmm... Loved the soup base... We even called Kmiang and Chan just to make em angry... XD... There were animals in cages at Patrick's... We saw a raccoon!! Soooooooo cute!! But unfortunately, we heard that it bites... =(

When we finished dinner, we just sat around, drinking.. I kept being made fun of... HMPH... haha... then someone got abit too high and was our perfect entertainment on the way home.. wahahaha... Sam took a video of it.. so funny!!

Day 2
Woke up the next day... Sandra, Marie & Shirley went to Genting... e rest of us went to Times Square... spotted this shop along the bridge with a very cute thai guy! Haha.. perfect for Sandra... He was selling patchwork bags which the rest of the girls were crazy over... I thought it was a little too expensive though... But they were really pretty.. Cecilia went off to meet her fren..

Went back hotel to rest... Had lunch at Sushi King which was very disappointing.. food was ok but service was quite bad... But that's probably what you have to expect in KL lar.. not like Singapore is any better though... Went to KLCC.. Saw the usual brands.. Topshop dun have pretty clothes.. sad.. Wanted Baskin Robbins but KLCC dont have!! So had Haagen Dazs instead.. =(... But still good though! Haha...

Met up with the rest at Sungei Wang again for dinner.. tried to take e monorail to Junji's gig.. It was soooo crowded!! But got one guy bio me!! Wahahaha... But someone said he looks gay.. = =+... Maybe is bio that guy beside me! Hahaha...

Arrived at Junji's gig and saw Sandra's frens... didnt drink though... at least, not me! Haha... Junji's gig was great... The bassist is so cute!! Daniel Foong.. hehe.. Everyone loves him!! But onli to know from Junji that he's getting married soon and he's onli 24! HMPH... I keep getting made fun of again.. Expected.. Haiz.. Haha... But at least it all came back with positive feedbacks.. not bad, not bad...

Day 3
Next morning had problems checking out... E hotel was quite bad in terms of system n all... But never mind, its over... went to Junji's place to eat.. Yummm!! The food was sooooo good! Adam & Aaron are so cute!! Haha... Had a very fun session again before Junji and David sent us to the location where we board our coach...

The service person on the coach is cute.. Hehe.. sandra like... summre scare e person.. XD... We spent alot of time crapping again... Wahaha..

Overall, it was fun.. Hehe... Will update photos later on... Now, when's the next trip?