|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

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February 2010
August 2010

my dad is ok now.. e operation took abt 4 hours n he had to b placed in ICU for observations... e operation was quite complicated.. but my dad went through it n won...

it was scary seeing ur dad being wheeled out of e operation theatre.. it scared e shit out of me.. n watching ur dad not being able to talk.. n juz lying there...

but e doc says tat dad was strong n tat e operation doesnt seem to affect him much.. he'll b up n running abt soon...

thnx for everyone who had been by me.. n my dad...

daddy's op was scheduled on 1st aug but it has been moved to technically tml... which is 28th july... let's pray for him..

im so guilty while typing this entry noeing how much worry i have caused the pple ard me, even pingster.. awwww... its not glorious even if i have my reasons... but things cn b a little too far sometimes n u juz have everybody worried sick while u bottle up n think tat u r e most miserable person on this earth.

that was exactly wat i appeared to b even if i do seem happy

when im all alone, i turn gloomy n tired n uncontrollably emotional..

which explains y i have been to clinging on to some on my frens for support n really big thankx to those who have supported me n accompany me during this time even if u dunno it...

big thanx to all my sakae mates!! u guys r e biggest surprise tat i had working at sakae.. u noe who u r!! working at sakae is not exactly great but u guys made it fun.. i even look forward to work sometimes when all of us r present! i love u guys!!

thnx ying n xian for putting up with my stupidity n lameness n emo sometimes.. dunno how life wun b if u two hadnt been with me.. i doubt i wld have lived this long...

i love all those with me.. please continue to b my frens...

arh.. was sitting in e mrt today when i heard this guy scolding this girl.. im not too sure how r they related (whether its e bf or e brother) but e guy was scolding e girl regarding how she didnt ans him properly n gave him attitude when he was talking to her juz now.. i overheard everything while sitting down n i cnt help it coz they were standing rite in front of me.. e guy even asked e girl to write 1000 times "sorry" n give it to him.. piang.. like kindergarten kid lar... but e girl looks ard 18 or 19... disgusting guy.. then later e girl cried but e guy wun stop.. damn it.. make me wan to slap e guy but dun wan trouble...

then i asked my dad today whether he will worry if i return home late since its e 7th month now.. but my daddy told me coolly tat he wun.. i asked him y n he said as long as i dun provoke de ghosts, they wun give me trouble either.. i thought tat was reasonable n sensible.. so plz pple.. if u guys r superstitious or anything, LISTEN TO MY DAD! haha...

hey sakae peeps!! when we going kbox?? when we going picnic?? plan leh!! hahaha... i cnt wait to hear u guys sing.. haha...

to jieying, kaixian, jonathan, carolyn, gabriel n those who read my blog but dun tag de: eh.. tag leh... lolz.. tell me u miss me i oso happy.. hahah

i thought i was e pessimistic one but e fact is tat sad things have been happening ard me.. couples r breaking up.. saddening..

ok.. mayb im not tat sad abt edwin breaking up with his gf.. i think e girl is lucky to b able to leave him while there's still time.. haha..

haix.. everything is so down.. find me something to cheer me up.. bah..

add-ons:

some guys juz dun get it... u make it very clear tat there's no way anything will happen between e 2 of u.. but he doesnt get it.. argh... meanwhile on e other hand, u try all out to get e other guy who doesnt seems to remember ur existance.. argh..

life juz have to b complicated..

i like sleeping alot.. not bcoz im tired.. not bcoz im lazy.. but bcoz i always had this illusion tat if i sleep alot, i'll b able to sleep all my troubles n problems away..

i'll stop crushing on this pointless guy n move on to someone who likes me
i'll not have to worry abt money
i'll not have to think abt losing anyone impt in my life
i'll not have to worry abt results (n nt getting enough attendance)
i'll not have to hear my mum shout everyday
i'll not have to do so many things att i did not wan to do

n so on n on n on...

but it has nv happened... whenever i woke up, things remain e same... mayb i shld learn to sleep forever... isnt tat nice?

arh... dun worry.. i wun do stupid things like killing myself coz i noe its not worth it... but if onli life cn b perfect... isnt tat wat everybody wans?

n my fren told me... y did Got create sufferings?
"coz otherwise life will no longer b fun."

wat kind of reason is tat? fuck..

arh.. i have agreed to go out with Edwin nxt mon after sch.. arh.. wat a big mistake considering e fact tat i have some really unhappy memories with him n e fact tat he hadnt changed as a slime... but i have no choice.. a promise is a promise.. n watching a lame movie like Scary Movie 4.. haix.. i'll juz b wasting my time...

Sunday

arh.. tat was fun.. was out with e sakae peeps on a trip to sakae @ funan.. which included:

Ruiping
Chuyun
Huji
Sara
Junjie
Kiafang
Yiqin
Chenguo

haha! n yiqin cheated e girl with a clever remark.. e girl counted e plates which amounted to 23 but he juz randomly said "but i thought u counted 13?" n e girl thought she made a mistake.. which means less cost of 10 plates for us.. n they forgot to count ruiping's share too which is abt 5 plates.. haha... good for us...

oh.. we r toking abt organizing a day to go Kbox.. u guys wanna??

arh.. sitting in e editing suites of DMA.. wearing super formal formal.. meaning blazer n heels.. awwww... mesh said i look like an executive... haha... yes... im a businesswoman.. hahha...

hair.. one of e most impt thing to a girl.. n now my head look like a mushroom.. im determined to go out on with a cap or if i tie my hair up.. or else i swear i look like a mushroom... ah.. mushroom heads r classic.. but i dun wan em back...

saturday will b working one full day.. but bless me.. my heart will b flying out to ngee ann city.. aww... if onli he comes to find me.. or let me sneak out.. BAH! either way its IMPOSSIBLE! now, dream on...

sunday will b dance at jitters... arh... u again.. shld i go?

my job.. my own manager offers me another job with better pay.. tempting.. but i miss my sakae mates... awwwww... n i wonder e intention bhind...

arh.... schwork.. nv ending... damn it.. let's quit sch! woohoo!!!

i was working today in a bad condition.. i started feeling e coldness back again suddenly n my head was thumping.. its like im having difficulty balancing or something... but i turned out ok later on.. haha...

now, e relationship between machoman, mei nu, shuai ge aka daddy, mummy n supermodel... its like a whole big whirl... haha.. but we r so enjoying it... haha...

bah.. i shldnt eat so much anymore.. im seriously getting FAT! call me vain or watsoeva.. but i really need to throw weight off.. arh.. god bless me n make em disappear...

i've always love happy endings n i always try to help couples ard me or couples-to-be... like e matter between my buddy n her bf.. i really thought tat by saying everything in her place will turn out well.. it did... but wat did it bring me?? emotions.. alot of weird emotions tat i cld not understand..

she was angry with us n she told half e world tat she's attached to her current bf b4 telling us... its feels sad.. esp after wat we did in helping em out...

i feel tat my efforts n everything r like extra n i shldnt have gotten involved or anything... its this deepdown sad feeling... nvm...

to e couple: enjoy...

sick today.. i think down with flu le lar.. no fever but instead whole body feels cold.. no energy or anything... whole body aching like hell.. was most in bed sleeping most of e day... haiz... WL so many pple down with flu... chuyun, sara, me.. pingping n huji oso not feeling well...

i called WL to say i cldnt work.. Grace was ok with it but Leeping called me half an hour later to blast at me.. say something abt me "giving schedule then not being able to work.. how cn like tat??" wah piang.. i mean, how am i suppose to predict when am i gonna fall sick n plan my schedule ard it?? then ask me to find replacement.. seriously.. i like leeping alot but then laterly her temper very scary lor.. >_<..

on e bright side.. e couple tat i worried abt is FINALLY together.. *clapz*.. let's juz say tat me n jiajia has some contribution... eh ben, u better take good care of her k?? otherwise i'll chop u up... esp if u dare to make her cry again...

i angry with huji le.. >_<... haha.. she went ard tagging on everyone's blog n say she switch blog add le but nv tag mine! *jealous*...

*walk to one corner, squat down n draw circles*

MMR was rushed out in e last of e hour... n we thought tat we gonna die.. everything was so rushed n problems even appeared on e last min... like a few survey results were not within e combined SPSS file tat we used... thank god everything solved themselves juz rite n we still managed to submit it up alrite...

its hard trying to tally e results of a survey sheet n wat was typed on e com screen... me n jon had to do it n we ended up with one person reading all e numbers out off e sheet n another tallying em on e com.. how weird.. i swear tat my lips felt numb with reading "two" too often.

n i still wonder whether tat last sheet of e survey att was handed in... was it really a new copy or e old survey in a new cover? i cnt blived she actually tried to alter e facts of e survey... like we needed a female but she got a male n she juz wanted to cancel it n put "male"... like wat e hell... n she cldnt even gave us a proper valid ans.. haix.. ok.. we shld have given her e benefit of e doubt but then.. its hard sometimes...

n i went for an API trip again today.. its NOT FUN.. boring time lar.. haiz.. stupid Kok Leong.. at first i dun wan to sit with KP de.. then Kok Leong was sitting in front alone n asked KP to come sit with him.. !@#$%^&*... he did it on purpose!! damn!!

i seriously miss the old clement..

i was on the phone with clement today n registered his change from when i first knew him.

he used to b e extremely nice n sweet guy whom my heart cn flutter for even though he's one year younger. its all e gentleman action n everything.

n then, when he entered JC, he changed.

always trying to tell pple how good he is n making jokes abt him better than everyone else or being so prefect. its funny to argue with him at e start but it starts to get boring soon.. n in e end? it even starts to get irritating. its like having to entertain him or something..

cn e old clement come back?

i like to c wat i cn do to make pple happily attached.. haha.. though i like to b happily attached myself.. tats hopeless.. nvm...

now my buddy is happily half-attached...

half-attached? haha... i think both sides noe wat each other feels le.. its juz time..

we'll let God decide...

i thought tat as a human being, its natural reaction when a good guy comes ur way n he likes u n u like him, u grab him, rite???

so how can u let a small misunderstanding get into e middle of this?

to my dear fren:
i so cn c tat this guy is crazy over u with wat i've been reading inside his blog.. it is NOT a coincidence.. YES he is toking abt U.. so since u like him too (which i have concluded) y not juz tell him??

e misunderstanding is small.. he wans to go back to e old days.. y bother to go back to e frens days since u two both like each other?? aiyo.. i really dun understand!!

its so frustrating to c e both of u act this way. i cn almost hear e guy's heart cracking juz by reading his blog..

my dear girl, plz do something n not let this chance slip by... its not something tat comes knockin at ur door very often.

awwwww..

yoyo! i've seen n read n heard abt how of my buddies r worried over my frenship with the i-dun-give-a-damn-abt-my-frens girl whom was mentioned in a few previous posts..

well guys... relax... i noe u guys wan to c us kiss n patch up (ewwww~!) but i can onli say tat i will NV b frens again with someone who throws abuses n insults at someone on personal attacks!

dun understand? take an example:

A fat girl stole your boyfriend.

a person with integrity n brains n basically un-mean will b scolding like: "you stole my boyfren u bitch! get e hell outta here!"

a person without all those mentioned will b scolding: "you stole my boyfren u fat bitch! u stupid dinosaur! fuck off! nobody will wan u coz u r so fat!"

c? one quarrels on e basis of e incident n does not call names. another scolds based on e other party's physical fault which is known as personal attacks. usually pple who quarrels e 2nd way r basically:

1) brainless
2) in the wrong
3) ah-lians

i assume tat she belongs to one of these catergories.

now my dear frens who r concerned, im not planning to b frens with someone who is mean in character, actions n about every other place.

end of story. =)

new blogskin!

haha.. u guys like it? i took quite some time to pick it out...

to chuyun: hey girl! i dunno y but i cnt click on e entries button in ur blog!