|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

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i hate it when i have to pretend..
like pretending everything is rite when everything is wrong!
or pretending tat we r frens when one party juz doesnt feels e same anymore...
or pretending to laugh when wat u really wan is to cry...

im so sick of it all...

i wish at some point of time i cn juz leave this all n run away to a complete different world..
like some other country n such

at this point of time, u understand hw impt a fren is..
n how much difference a bf cn make..

u will wan a bf to hug u when u feel brittle
u will wan a bf to kiss u n tel u everything will b alrite
and he does try to make it alrite
everytime, u need him, he's juz a phonecall away
n he'll b there to hold ur hands n protect u from all fears...

now, my hero, my bf, my lover.. where r u?

this came as a shock yesterday..

it was my sister's bdae yesterday n as i sit down for tat few mins to check out my email, i came upon this as a testimonial in frenster...



when i opened it, it scared e hell outta me... but nvm.. its sweet..

coz its given to me n done by:

Mr Pua Jin Wen

sweet.. *grinz*.. e first time im overjoyed on my sister's bdae

went to dinner at Fish & Co with

Chuyun
Xueli
Ruiping
Pamela

we smart lor.. ordered ALOT of food.. haha... we each had a main course, a drink n we shared a SF platter among e 5 of us... however, by e time we finish our own stuff, we cnt eat e SF platter so we ended up playing zhong ji mi ma then loser eat.. at first i keep losing but in e end nv lose le.. wahaha... c? luck goes ard n comes ard! haha..

but today ended on a pretty fun note.. sorry to pingping! i keep suaning u today.. haha... duibuqi lar.. haha...

hey... criticizing in my blog? who started it? get a life n acknowledge tat... oh.. n dun worry.. i cnt WAIT to get out of ur life.. i mean, y wld i need to stay in e life of a person who CNT B BOTHERED TO PUT IN ANY EFFORT INTO A SINGLE RELATIONSHIP

talking abt an effort... u cnt b bothered to ask rite? u dun even put in any effort to meet up with us n all.. our birthdays r like annual meeting for u onli lar... since when we meet up outside such events?

u pay for urself? yar... n then survive on ur parent's money.. there's no difference lar.. or mayb splurging ur bf's money? whom we cn c tat has worked very hard juz to support u... oh.. my buck teeth got e braces to do e job.. DUN NEED U TO WORRY... n shut ur mouth up lar.. u r in no position to speak...

its an OBSERVATION.. c? u cnt b bothered to observe.. anybody cn c tat jieying doesnt wear perfume... so y wld u suddenly buy a perfume for her when she doesnt have e habit of using? isnt tat brainless, miss bimbo...

as frens u dun even mind wasting time with each other... it is juz e thought of being with each other n u like e time spent together... its not juz bcoz there's no plan so u run off with someone else...

u wan to slap me? go ahead.. im in no wrong... i dun care... u ought to feel guilty... u noe who is right n who is wrong...

i wun reply to anything else u say... bcoz this is childish n i feel tat it is enough.. go ahead n say wat u wan.. im tired of arguein with a girl who doesnt understand e importance of frenship n e commitment pple puts in n realise tat e other party doesnt care... u wun understand... coz u r always e party who doesnt care..

im surprised to noe tat jieying cn remember me feeding her her first cheesefries! hahha... so sweet... yup...

tats how frens r supposed to b...

was enthusiastically thinking of blogging abt today's trip to marina bay with my sakae frens..


esp e part abt Huji.. haha...


but i was too tired n too troubled to think of anything now...


so all u might wanna noe is tat i out with:


Huji
Sara
Junjie
Wheehong
Xueli
Chenguo
Yiqin
Wanrong
Jason (Kitchen)


its fun... we can do this again anytime..

it was pretty obvious who u were referring to in ur blog..
i was ready to forget it
but u still thinks tat its our fault
fine by me...


first correction: i did not even type in any blog entry regarding tat.. so now tell me where did u c tat blog entry... or mayb u like self-deluding?


$7 might b nth to u
receiving a paycheck of $400 might b alot
(which i doubt so since u r freaking rich)
but u might like to consider e situation of e person
$400 is not alot
i have to pay for everything myself
my dad had an operation n is resting at home
he did not work so there's no income
thus im supporting myself
n again.. u didnt care enough to enquiry abt my dad..


now think again how much $7 means to me
by e time his kidney report is out
tat $7 juz might have to go to paying bills
so shut ur mouth up, bitch
im not born like u who wastes parent's money on LVs n Guccis


nxt.. there's nth wrong in wanting to buy ur own present for ur frens
but i thought e notice can b earlier than e day itself
its not e action tat is wrong..
its e IRRESPONSIBILITY..


nxt.. e present itself...
ur intention was totally wrong
it was not even coz its a present for ur fren
u bought it coz u wan to SUPPORT ur BF


n wat did u buy for ur fren?
have u ever care enough to notice tat ur fren doesnt wear perfume?
have u ever care enough to noe tat ur fren is sensitive to perfumes?


n wats with meeting us le then go off?
went off n nv came back.. wtf...


nvm... u dun give a damn anyway...

past 3 days had been at 6K chalet which we did nth except slack


but i slept late on both days n now im in a terrible condition


zZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....


our chalet is very big n very creepy
but got quite alot of pple so ok lar
then everybody sleep together
girls on e bed while guys on e floor
eh! but they got mattress k?
pull from other rooms de..


first day we went n bought BBQ food.. haha...
n we spent $200.. siao lor.. didnt even think then buy le..
then cabbed down to Changi
prepared e food..
tat place is infested with mosquitos n ants
wahlao.. have to protect all e food
but e facilities r good.. we've got most things we need...


at nite went changi village to c she-men...
haha.. chatted till very late...
regarding alot of things
esp our doubts on eugene n his gfs... haha...


then nxt day cnt b bothered to wake up
so slept till late then went Tampines Mall
hang out n eat le then went back... play PS2
then wait for some others to arrive
then play like hell.. haha...


it was boring life there but fun again coz we had each other...
i wan to do this again.. hehe...
i will organize again but this time i'll do a better job! haha

i hate it when pple fly my plane e last min which results to budget probs, disorganization n alot of stuff...


some pple r not able to make it to e 6K chalet last min
kinda disappointed
but nvm.. nice pple will still b going!! woohoo!!
haha... we r already planning mahjong, cards n PS2


not forgetting.. erm... scary little trips.. haha


Aloha Changi is not exactly very bright...
nvm...


i'll b away till wed.. pple.. dun miss me.. *grinz*

im sitting in front on my com blogging while the clock reads 4.26am...
i think im kind of crazy to b blogging at 4.26am...
but u'll think tat its ok after u read e end of this entry...

-
i onli reached home at 2.30am in e morning
after taking a 50 mins long NR2 bus ride
this was after eating supper with e following pple:


Ruiping
Xueli
Chuyun
Siew Li
Pamela


adrian n don was supposed to join us after but they didnt show up
n neither did they call or wat...
nvm.. its ok.. not like i wan em there...


after crapping e whole nite n settled for a shoppin trip
we then went home n searched for an NR for Siew Li to take home first
then i went home on NR2 while Ruiping n Xueli took a cab


on e way home, jieying called me up from CM's
she was there with gordon, weiting, eddie n a guy called ray or something
apparently, gordon n weiting has taken an interest in each other
n she's kind of scared tat e two of em will "own place, own timing"
n since e two of em r dead drunk, its not impossible


as for e rest of e story, i'll wait for my girl to come admiralty to find me n fill me up...


since im worried, I CNT SLEEP! get it?


argh... later still got YEC event which i really dun wanna go.. bored to death lor.. thnx god got dance com... hiphop.. but dunno good or not.. nv heard those pple b4 de.. not like Steezerz or DSS...

was working today.. haha.. all e fun pple...
chuyun
chenguo
ruiping
xueli
huji


then whole sakae very noisy today... haha..


after work went mac... haha... then everybody rush bus n trains..


i wan locker.. lazy carry my uniform everyday lar... sian...
haha... but i too young lar.. haha... too new...


tml workin full... sian!

im in one of those moody moods where i dun feel like going anywhere with anyone..


ok.. mayb there r a few exception cases..


but im so tired tat i dun feel like going anywhere.. like im grounding myself or something..


im getting weird...

i worked for demo today n as usual, i slacked..
demo is a slacker job with good money.. haha


i was selling ROTI PRATA at centrepoint
weird eh? haha
sales was quite good, to my surprise
i thought no sane person wld buy frozen prata in town
i guess singapore got quite a few pple who r insane


anyway, i didnt go there to sell prata
i went there to EAT prata
nice job.. *grinz*


then i walk back to Wheelock to get my pay check
lolz.. then c eveyrbody so busy then i slacker there
wahlao.. leeping dun wan tok to me.. i sad le lar!!
haha.. but i think she kidding onli anyway...
ruiping wan to kill me oso... so busy i still "yo" with her


wheehong runner... HAHA!

my head is booming
my nose is watery
my throat is dry
my cough is bad


I AM SICK!!


oh damn.. now it means i gotta plop in bed n rest...


nice time to spend e hols, i muz say...

i wan someone who really loves me...

i swear tat this is one of e most ridiculous thing i have ever experienced in my 18 years of life
i was hesistating abt blogging it
but decided tat its actually quite amusing
so i'll still let e world noe abt it


in my 18 years of life
i thought my dad was born on 28th Jan' 1955
tats e birthday tat we've been celebrating


as some of my buddies noe
my dad's surname is Yeo (same as me lar)
but my granddad's surname is Huang
this is bcoz my dad took his surname after his adoptive father
as my granddad was not in singapore to register my dad's birth
he was busy in china flirting with his 2nd wife


due to this, my dad got e info from my granddad 3 years ago
b4 my granddad pass away
tat he's birthday is actually 18th Jan'1954


my dad's been keeping it from us


which means, we've been celebrating e wrong birthday
for my dad's 50 years of life...


we got both e date n the year wrong
my dad is older than wat he's supposed to b!


to think they registered his birth one year later


how ridiculous


now we dunno which birthday to celebrate for him


my granddad is really annoying
y say it when u didnt say anything for 50 years?
u having a fun time fooling us huh?


nvm.. let's forgive the dead...


its really amusing and ridiculous


my dad's family is so drama...

sista going to taiwan to study uni le
she's been accepted
i feel so sad n happy at e same time


im so going to miss her
she'll b gone for 4 years


4 years n there will b
no one sleepin bside me
no one to chat with me till late in e nite
no one for me to fight food with
no one for me to make fun of
no one to laugh n share crazy things with
no one to go to for help when mum's angry


my sister is not yet gone n im missing her already


but then, it also means


computer all to myself!
nobody naggin at me!


but i still think im gonna b lonely

We're the best of friends
And we share our secrets
She knows everything that is on my mind
But lately somethings changed
As I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says


Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside


Oh im so afraid to make that first move
Just a touch and we
Could cross the line
And everytime she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close


Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside


What would she say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
That she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself


Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way u feel inside


Why don't you kiss her (tell her you love her)
Why don't u tell her (tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
The feelings that you hide
Cuz she'll never know
If you never show
The way you feel inside...

i hate gabriel...

quote from u:


"let me see how shallow and superficial friendship could be"
"but then i was wrong on this area, guess people can be realistic huh"
"i thought good friends ma, or rather bestie -.- bah....nonsense......"


damn u... it hurts...