|The Dancing Loner|

Joanne
22nd feburary 1988
captive at SP DMC
when i'm in a bad mood, fuck off

|Cant Get Enough|

`Samuel and Kevin
`Adidas
`dance
`dogs
`crapping
`manicure
`dark chocolate
`ice-cream
`oreo cheesecake
`bananas
`soft toys

|Absent From Her Life|

*$2000 for taiwan trip*
* $3500 for Japan trip *
* slimming down n maintaining it *
* Endless clothes from Topshop, Zara, Mango etc *
* Nice bag *
* A little doggie (NO Jack Russells please) *
* A concert ticket to NEWS concert *
* 1TB Hard-drive *
*Ipod Touch*
*Yukata*
*Sony Vaio VGN-FJ78GP/B*

|Dance Tune|

|The Important|

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(",) Sakae Wheelock
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ruiping
chuyun
huji
xueli
kia fang
wheehong
jian guo
gabriel

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(",) BPGHS
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pameela
siimynn
sara
ally
lynnie
grace
liling
audrey
zaki
leo

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(",) SP DMC 05
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regina
weijie
jonathan
zhili
kaymiang
nicole
carolyn
ifah
shaun
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC 05 (LJs)
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zhili
nicole
kmiang
nad
regina
weijie
weheartshaun

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(",) SP DMC Jrs
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mervyn
dominic aka weipin
mizah
mahirah

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(",) ADP 6K'ers
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carina
connie
debbie
eric
eugene

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(",) Uncle Vincent's
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aidi
val
mindi
marine
maisie
nikky

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(",) Mediacorp
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row
samantha
nat
pinghui

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(",) Others
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ng
jinwen
gaddafy
tze shweng
huida
hweeting
rubez
poh ying
ryu
eastyle wretch
eastyle yahoo
ahdi
energy
zhi yong

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(",) Redirecting
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hotmail
gmail
yahoo
facebook
youtube
friendster
hi5
singapore polytechnic

|Forgottened|

January 2005
February 2005
March 2005
April 2005
May 2005
June 2005
July 2005
August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
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November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
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April 2007
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August 2007
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November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
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October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
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April 2009
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September 2009
October 2009
December 2009
February 2010
August 2010

warning: this gonna b a super duper long entry...

b4 i start e day's shit n all my emoness, i juz thought of something... n thnx to sara's blog which reminded me of it...

I MIGHT NOT B COUNTING DOWN TO XMAS WITH MY COLLEAGUES!!

all thnx to e sakae management who "forgot" tat their dear employees got e right to celebrate xmas too! u assholes! go party away n let us slave to earn money for u... n it came LAST MIN! obviously its planned.. they muz have known tat nobody gonna give schedule for tat nite if they have to work till 12.30am... so they waited till e schedule was too late to change b4 they release e fax...

so shit lar~! but dun worry pple... i doubt they'll stay past 12... look, who wans to countdown to xmas in a shabby place like wheelock sakae sushi?? they shld b out on orchard road, squeezing e shit past all e banglahs... nobody wanna give e special xmas kiss in wheelock rite?? we hang no mistletoe! so i'll b praying tat they'll b out.. then we cn b e pathetic ones to countdown in wheelock.. but nvm...

thnx god i dun work tat day though.. but its no fun to go from hougang to orchard... = =+...

was supposed to work at hougang point today, selling asience shampoo... but i ended up at hougang mall.. called up chenguo n asked him for directions... shld have called jinwen sia!! hahaha... but didnt wan to disturb him... in e end had to rush to hougang point.. wat shit...

n i sold one pack in e 5 mins i worked in hougang mall.. n i sold one pack in e 3 hours i stood in hougang point.. tats how pathetic hougang point is..

every customer is practically ignoring me.. i feel so insulted.. nv in my life my sales result was so bad.. jerry cldnt blive his ears when he came down for spot-check... but he saw for himself e situation on hougang point... its filled with NTUC workers, cleaners, securities n promoters.. juz no customers... i dread going back tml... but im not gonna push money out of e way.. not when im paid xtras..

came back home pretty early n mum bought a logcake.. = =+.. its e first time we had anything related to xmas in e family... pretty amazing... but all im interested in was e powdered sugar, acting as snow.. tats abt all i eat off e cake... or rather, e board... its delicious.. haha... melts in ur mouth..

then read someone's blog which was totally emotified.. i cnt blive there's osmeone out there tats even more emo than me.. = =+... n i felt depressed after i read it.. its like, u so wanna hug him n tell him everything gonna b alrite.. but then, i better dun in case someone comes after me.. *winks*..

it really tells u how someone looks so glamorous on e outside but deepdown, he or she cld b feel worse than u... i guess tats how things work in life.. if u attaint something, u have to give up others.. no one's life will b perfect... but no one's life will b a joke either.. its all in ur control..

oh well.. someone shld shake his emo up...

my own emo-ness... due to reading someone's blog... nope.. its not e same someone...

topic for e day: love n crush...

how do u determine if u love someone or u juz got a crush on em? e feeling's nearly e same isnt it? usually i rely on my sanity to tell me which is which...

like i noe i've onli got a crush on jinwen... a crush so strong tat it nearly turned into love... for tat moment, i thought i loved him.... then it all died down... not totally but it all subsided till now which i still carries hope but looking at things in a different light...

e reference in e following is no longer jinwen but someone else...

i wondered wat was tat tat we shared between us.. it was all a simple crush wasnt it? n we knew it.. but e sparks, e chemistry, was there...

crush alone wld not survive.. we had to let go... or eventually, one party will leave... n its going to hurt...

then wat was it tat u shared with her? was it e same like mine? u spent ur efforts on her.. i dunno wat u did... was it any different from mine? is she.. still a crush? or has hers evolved to love? did u care for her e way u did back then to me?

questions running through my head as i read e entry n thinking of every word coming from u... thinking of how she let u felt e way u didnt feel for me.. or so i think... its not sadness... i dun think it is... its more like a feeling of failure... n i've got no idea y im feeling this way...

perhaps, i juz dun like to lose...

reminded me of my meeting with e 6K girls yesterday... n cari saying how i shld learn to settle down.. its not like i dun wan to... its bcoz e one i wan doesnt wan to settle down with me.. *pouts*...

took lots n lots of photo from yating's cam... 300+ photos in a nite... more than half of it has cari inside i think.. haha.. too bad lar.. she's photogenic n im not... haha.. but had some emo pics... n some nice artistic ones... thnx yating! haha..she's good at this..

will post em up later when i got hold of em.. =)...